The healing of me .. Part 2 .. December 21st

Some of this was written.. as a tribute on Liza's birthday this past year.. I sent out an email card to all of my family and friends .. just wanting them to remember.. my daughter .. Reflections of the past.. may be painful.. but we learn from our past.. and we move on.. we are not meant to live in our past or in there mistakes or hurts .. Liza was a "Joy" in my life... with lots of happy memories.. and yes.. sad ones too.. Heart breaking ones.. My heart did not break.. but was torn.. but God mended me.. repairing my heart.. so that I could live to give... to any and all who would be willing to hear..

So .. If you read this Please do not be sad .. Jesus died too .. and He left us with a promise of eternal life. That hope is here for all of us. Reach out to those around you and show them Love today. Life can be very lonely at times for lots of people. You can make a difference in some one's life. God loves you .. His greatest commandment is to love one another.

I re-visited here today.. Remembering 27 years ago.. it all started on Dec 17.. 1981 .. a day much like today.. cold and foggy .. that night we ended up in the emergency room.. by ambulance .. this was before 911 .. How far things have come .. then transported to Ochsner.. i was too young to understand all that was happening.. your life in the hand of man.. But in the next 5 days.. I would come to understand.. that your life.. Was in the hands of God..

Reflections of life some good , some bad, some happy, some sad..
And so I lean not on my own understand but in All my ways acknowledge Him .. Because of Him my life is/was forever changed

I released you to God but you will always live in my heart. It is because you lived and died that I have so much love for God in my life. So I remember you with gladness in my heart .. not sadness because I know that even though we have had to be apart .. you have lived within my heart. God has been with us both .. and one day we will meet again .. in Heaven .. Heavens little girl - until we meet again - you are loved and missed .. I will always remember the "Joy" you gave me .. I Love you .. Mom-Me ..

March 4, 1980 .. Returned to heaven .. December 21

In loving Memory of my ..Little

You are a "beautiful" memory in my garden of life.

Note: Sunday December 21, 2008 ... I will be at my mother's house.. I believe God has more healing to take place.. in the life of me and my mother .. the distance and the space .. in our relationship .. started 27 years ago .. The hurt in our lives.. hurt those around us.. Love hurts.. there is no way around it .. you must go through it ..

Mother..

I needed you to walk with me ..

I was in a place where not many understood..

I felt so all alone..

In my weakness I became strong..

Leaning on God..

But I still needed you ..

I felt like you abandoned me

I am here today to set this feeling of abandonment free

Released to the Lord

For our healing

Your Child LisaMe!