Another Year too quickly it seems at last .. has come to pass..

As we take that Spiritual Inventory .. there are things.. that did not seem completed in the former year.. that will follow us into the next .. 2008 was to be the year of the Open door ..And although some doors did open .. exactly what did they open .. the process has not been completed .. but truly doors opened .. I pray that in 2009 .. it will be a little more defined .. on where those doors lead .. I am still expecting .. What God has for me.. to come to pass.. His word says.. He will be faithful to complete the work in me .. that He has started.. I believe this.. and so I wait.. Trusting in Him ..

Not in man.. or in myself.. Only God can accomplish His will in my life ..


I do know that some doors have closed.. And truth be told.. doors do have to close in order for new doors to open.. We can only walk through one door at a time.. So again as I trust God to make the crooked paths straight.. I take hold of the corrections from the Lord from this past year.. and walk forward.. with healing in my heart ..


So as I say goodbye.. to 2008 .. I can say .. it has not been a wasted year.. but one with change.. healing .. and more defined expectations for 2009 ..
What will God birth in me ..
I have a glimps .. And I am excited to see...
God Bless you for taking this journey with me ...
Note: Check out my poetry site.. My .. Good-Bye to 2008
Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

What is a Moo Doodle .. he is not a kitten or a poodle.. He is just my Henry Moo Doodle

I just spent 

A day and A night 

With my little Grandson 

Henry

 I wrote him a story for Christmas

There is much to be said

For not having money

I would rather 

Have heart 

Instead

I found this little Stuffed Cow 

And 

Thought right away 

About my little Henry

We tease each other .. I call him Henry doodle

And 

In return he giggles and calls me Gram-Me doodle

His mother calls him Moo Moo sometimes 

Because of a little song we sang when she was his age

The story is a 

Moo~autiful Story

 About a Gram-Me Moo Doodle 

Going to visit

Her grandson 

Henry Moo Doodle

 Moo Doodle is a royal cow

With a gold ribbon tied in a bow about his neck 

Holding a beautiful gold bell

So you can always tell 

When he is coming 

And 

When he is going

We wonder 

And 

Suppose if that Bow

 Could turn 

Into wings 

And 

Transport 

My little Moo Doodle

Then he could visit 

Anytime 

He would like

Instead of having to play 

Through the phone 

It brought me lots of Giggles .. lol

Note: It was a lot of work on my part.. but done with my heart.. Next year.. I will start earlier.. it will be easier.. as I am learning.. how to do this.. writing thing.. and have found some wonderful illustrators .. One Day.. my work.. will see professional publishing.. Until that day..
I will keep doing what I do.. Writing out of my heart.. for those that touch my life..
Much Love
Gram-Me.. Mom-Me .. LisaMe!

The healing of me .. Part 2 .. December 21st

Some of this was written.. as a tribute on Liza's birthday this past year.. I sent out an email card to all of my family and friends .. just wanting them to remember.. my daughter .. Reflections of the past.. may be painful.. but we learn from our past.. and we move on.. we are not meant to live in our past or in there mistakes or hurts .. Liza was a "Joy" in my life... with lots of happy memories.. and yes.. sad ones too.. Heart breaking ones.. My heart did not break.. but was torn.. but God mended me.. repairing my heart.. so that I could live to give... to any and all who would be willing to hear..

So .. If you read this Please do not be sad .. Jesus died too .. and He left us with a promise of eternal life. That hope is here for all of us. Reach out to those around you and show them Love today. Life can be very lonely at times for lots of people. You can make a difference in some one's life. God loves you .. His greatest commandment is to love one another.

I re-visited here today.. Remembering 27 years ago.. it all started on Dec 17.. 1981 .. a day much like today.. cold and foggy .. that night we ended up in the emergency room.. by ambulance .. this was before 911 .. How far things have come .. then transported to Ochsner.. i was too young to understand all that was happening.. your life in the hand of man.. But in the next 5 days.. I would come to understand.. that your life.. Was in the hands of God..

Reflections of life some good , some bad, some happy, some sad..
And so I lean not on my own understand but in All my ways acknowledge Him .. Because of Him my life is/was forever changed

I released you to God but you will always live in my heart. It is because you lived and died that I have so much love for God in my life. So I remember you with gladness in my heart .. not sadness because I know that even though we have had to be apart .. you have lived within my heart. God has been with us both .. and one day we will meet again .. in Heaven .. Heavens little girl - until we meet again - you are loved and missed .. I will always remember the "Joy" you gave me .. I Love you .. Mom-Me ..

March 4, 1980 .. Returned to heaven .. December 21

In loving Memory of my ..Little

You are a "beautiful" memory in my garden of life.

Note: Sunday December 21, 2008 ... I will be at my mother's house.. I believe God has more healing to take place.. in the life of me and my mother .. the distance and the space .. in our relationship .. started 27 years ago .. The hurt in our lives.. hurt those around us.. Love hurts.. there is no way around it .. you must go through it ..

Mother..

I needed you to walk with me ..

I was in a place where not many understood..

I felt so all alone..

In my weakness I became strong..

Leaning on God..

But I still needed you ..

I felt like you abandoned me

I am here today to set this feeling of abandonment free

Released to the Lord

For our healing

Your Child LisaMe!

Today is the day

This is the Day that the Lord has Made

I will rejoice and be glad in it

This can be the day that will change

The rest of my life

I am meeting with a photographer

She is more than a person with a camera She is someone who will see what I see

First with her spirit

Then through the lense of her Camera

This will open a whole new world to me
As we bring encouragement to the Nations
We will compliment each other.. with our work..

I pray that the Lord would show us the way
As we think upon our meeting today ...

Note: here a yr later ... God took me on a different path .. and Praise be unto Him ..my book is published at last

It's beginning to Look a lot like Christmas

All the Fancy

Frills

Children's Laughter 

Reindeer's

With red noses

As One Supposes

But

I do not believe in Santa Claus

So

In saying this

I 

Take 

A

Pause

To

Say

Everyone

Deserves A Laugh

And 

So

I 

Caution

You

Open at your 

Own

Risk

 You

Might

Just

Get

Wet

Splish Splash
This is LisaMe!

Jumping in with

Both Feet

Nice to Meet You

Our Girls

Stacey and I both have daughters...

My daughter Jamie... always wanted an older sister.. her older sister.. Liza died before she was born .. Jamie always wondered what it would be like.. to have had her older sister to play with and confide in ..

Jamie and Raven..
(Stacey's daughter)

hit it off .. right away..
Raven is the same age Liza would be..
Jamie and Raven became sisters..
they both lived with us.. when we first got married..
and bonded..
Raven stood in Jamie's wedding..
when we moved to Florida .. they lost contact with each other..
When we moved back.. they got reacquainted.. but do not get to see each other often..
Jamie had Henry in July '05 and Raven had Keegan in December '05 ..
both had boys.. that was 3 yrs ago..

And Now here they are.. both..

pregnant together again.

The are both Due the first week in April

Both having Girls

This Gram-Me

Is Excited ..

I am in Awe and Amazed at the things I feel God doing through me .. 

Daily I am getting new Inspirations .. 

Sharing them here for you to see ..

This has become my test site .. 

Seeing what my writings will look like in the pages of a book .. 

And here recently .. 

Inspirations in Frames

Will be setting up a store soon ....

Keep me in prayer .. 

As I prepare 

For All that God 

Has for me ..

Yes this is Me.. LisaMe!

Note: If you click on the photo you will be able to read what is in the frame .. this applies to all of the postings ... Be sure to check out the poetry link .. It will take you to .. more from LisaMe!

Expectation

We try to explain it to others 

And share with them

The hope

In the midst.. of the storm.. 

that seems to rage on .. even when we see.. the rainbow .. spiritually before everyone else ..

 "I feel the rain" 

In the midst of my pain

And the trials that I have been in .. throughout my life

 I feel God 

All around me

I feel the wind 

Of 

His mighty spirit blow

I feel change  

I feel the rain

I feel my season .. is changing

I feel these things .. deep within .. my spirit

And know

Somethings are about to go 

Some will go forth 

And 

Be no more

And 

Somethings 

Will Go .. Forth

Like 

Never Before

Note: written 11-24-08 For days I have been going through my writings .. And posting them on my poetry site ..

While reading .. through the pages of my life

I have things written from days of the past..

It's like staring into a looking glass ..

Some are written new today

Inspired by you from yesterday

I get renewed and encouraged .. either way

Some are old and some are new..

But all are being journal ed here for you ..

Yes.. this is LisaMe trying to keep up

With the things .. I do .. lol

Note: 4-24-08
*Within the month Stacey had lost his job in Jacksonville ..which because he was a Maintenance supervisor and worked in Apartment  part of his compensation was a free apartment .. so losing his job.. also would relocate where we lived .. We searched and sought the Lord.. He received a phone call .. and was offered a Job in Morgan City, La .. We moved back home to Louisiana ..

Might Rushing Wind

The rushing wind of God's Spirit 

Is moving faster than I can type.. 

these days ..I love the Lord .. 

His Spirit lives in me ..

it is so Awesome.. 

It is truly a whirlwind I feel 

when the Lord leads me too each and everyone of you .. 

God is doing something special 

and 

new in each day 

In everyone of you .. 

When our spirits touch.. 

God Moves so Awesomely .. 

It is not about me and not about you.. 

but about the Glory of the Lord ..

 and His purpose for All of this .. 

this is His World.. His Creation .. 

I am so grateful to be a small part of it ..

And so I am sharing my Joy of the Lord today.. 

I am passing out “Joy” today! 

Because it is the Joy of the Lord, 

that I feel springing up in me today!

Note:4-24-08 Posted in CafeMom for my sister friends.. there as I sit in my chair feeling God's Awesome presence there .. Change is in the air .. I do not have to understand it to write about it .. Amen! I love sharing with my sister friends ..

Weeping for the Joy of the Lord

By LisaMe!

As we cry out to the Lord

He hears our every prayer

No matter how deep

We may be in despair 

And rising up from underneath 

Before we know it

His Joy
Has spread
To our Feet 

And it rises
Oh so high

And
Soon
We feel it
In our eyes ..

Spilling out
With tears of Joy ..

Psalms 30:5 And though tears may endure for the night Joy comes in the Morning..

The Joy of the Lord is my Strength and shield.. It is in Him.. that I put my trust .. I will stay planted in Him .. As He flows rivers of living waters.. from me ..

John 7:38 He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water."

As we worship
The Son of God..

We are reminded
Of
His love

And
Warmth through
This beautiful Sun Flower..

I feel the Son in you 
Love LisaMe!

Isaiah 40:31
(Amplified Bible)

31But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.

12/15/2010
~Expectant Heart~

This is what Life is all about .. in my book " A Candy for All Seasons" it brings with it candy messages for Life changes.. sometimes we are afraid of change... but it is what is coming.. just like falling into winter ... we are not always ready for it.. but .. it is here .. We are here to help one another .. as we are going through ... What I do for you today .. just may help me with what I have to go through tomorrow.. Amen ... I am in love with God because He loved me enough to send me His son... dying for my selfish sins.. dying in my place .. I am forgiven... because of Him .. LisaMe!

Tomorrow is another day

To write, to sing and to pray

For all of those 

God sends my way 

... Yes ...

Tomorrow

 Is another day 

I am looking forward

To what tomorrow brings

Sharing
Thoughts from
LisaMe!

Psalm 25:21Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, For I wait for You. (NKJV) (12/15/2010)

Note: 12/15/2010
Day 35 ~ Expectant Heart ~ This continues to be what moves inside of me .. as I wait upon the Lord.. for His promises over my life.. Daily I am seeing His hand in my life. As I continue to journey through .. I see how He has been moving through me .. over a period of years .. His promise never dying inside of me ..Although there have been times when I had to lay it down ..God always resurecting it in my heart .. And now here today .. I wait for the Logo for the new mission in my life.. on the verge of stepping out in another season.. seeing more and more of the vision.. coming to pass..

Waiting on God ~ Expectantly

I have added a new blog page simply named Poetry by LisaMe!

http://poetrybylisame.blogspot.com/

A place where I am posting all of my poems written for friends .. and or special words of encouragement ..

Reminding myself.. how much I love to write .. lol .. Really I love to talk ..

Writing has come deep from within .. More out of necessity ..

Not able to talk to those that I love

So I found another way to share ...

Sleepless Nights

I
Cannot
Sleep
And
So
I
Write
Hearing rhymes
Throughout
The night

Thoughts
Come in
And
Out my head
And
So I get up
Out of bed
To write
Them down
So
I
Do not
 Forget

I
 Took
One
Too
Many
Pills

It was for pain
and
Not for thrills
And
 Now
Has me
Feeling
O
So ill

My little Jamie

Sits in this chair

Because life got busy

So she went to Day Care

It did not last for very long

She enjoyed her time while I was gone

There were lots of children with her to play

When I was busy on that day

Note: Jamie was 2yrs old.. I went to work selling Tupperware .. became a Manager in just 5wks.. and in less than 2 mths.. I earned my Dodge Mini Van.. I was a Manager for a yr and enjoyed driving that Van for that year..All I had to do was put the gass in it .. It really helped me through a rough time.. in my life.. God Blessed me so much .. It amazes me to look back.. and see all the places He has carried me ..

I love my son .. and do not always understand the mind of those that I love.. I do not understand why he could not come see .. me.. we can make all kinds of excuses.. but the truth is.. if he wanted to.. he would have been here.. ( I guess I am reaping what I have sown) So I choose.. to let Grace takes the place of hurt.. I will not grow bitter this way .. and when I do get to see my son again.. one day.. What a Happy Day that will be.. When I feel his arms around me .. His little snuggle to my neck.. making sure.. I am his Mom-Me ..

Even Jesus needed space from His mother.. When a man grows up .. He has lots of things he has to face.. that his mother's love can no longer protect him from .. I am proud of my son.. He has become a Man.. He is working hard.. to provide for his wife.. and his life..

Note to Self: Inspired .. 11-16-08 Mood on my space.. the day after.. I realized my son.. was not coming to see me .. after Pie's funeral .. LisaMe! is being very understanding .. offering Grace to thoses I love .. as I write on myspace
And then I write.. lol..

"The healing of Me"

Such a Beautiful

Little Face

Liza 

My Bright Shinning Star

Shinning down from Heaven

Many would say you are an Angel

I know Heaven is your home

And

You are not alone

One Day my sweet child

I will be where you are

Until that time

I will continue 

To Live

And

Love

Those left on this earth

That need a Mother's Heart

I look forward

To seeing you again

Until that time

You will be

Forever in my Heart

It's been 31 years Today

There is no distance 

Time or space

That can replace

Our time together

God Truly

Heals a broken heart

Praise

Rises from

My heart

Because I Know

Jesus

Holds you now

When we walk with the Lord

In the Light of His word

What a Glory He sheds on our way!

While we do His good will

He abides with us still

And with all who will 

Trust and Obey 

Note 12/21/2012 Another year comes to pass .. Adding another inspiration .. and thoughts to the healing of me .. Life is too short to waste .. We have love and life to share.. in a world .. without much time to spare ..this is my journey .. this is my life .. I continue to walk it out daily .. Trusting and Obeying .. My Lord and Savior.. Jesus Christ ..

Life is a journey and we continue to heal a little every year.. but of course there are always new hurts to replace the old.. So what better way to .. remember and move on .. than with a healing tree ..

In case you do not know me.. Dec 21 1981 .. my 21 mth old daughter Liza Nichole .. died .. she was not sick.. there was no sign that this child of mine was soon to die ..

I had my Christmas tree up with all of her presents underneath .. Then Suddenly .. I found myself sitting alone in a hospital waiting room .. wondering what was happening.. 5 days later she was gone .. She was buried Dec 23rd .. I gave the presents under the tree to the Church.. and followed my family out of town.. because I knew she would not want me to be sad .. although my heart was hurting so bad.. I pushed forward with my life .. Remembering the Joy she brought into my life ...


My life did go on .. I re-married .. a childhood friend and had two beautiful children .. Christmas .. always had it sad moments .. but life goes on .. And as long as I had my children and a family.. I would be ok ..

This is the Story of the healing of me .....

In 2003 my first Christmas with my new husband .. Which should have been a really happy time .. I realized we were Empty Nester's .. it hit me hard .. I could not bear to put up a Christmas tree.. so I put up a Healing Tree .. just for me.. I put it in what I called my healing room .. All decorated pink and white.. When I entered there.. I was able to be who I needed to be.. and feel free.. to think about all the woulda, coulda, shoulda's .. It really did help.. I searched for my lost Joy... Wondering LisaWho ... and discovered... some things about myself .. deep rooted .. hurts.. that are very seldom.. let out of the box .. December just happens to be a time.. I take the box.. down off the shelf.. go through the hurts... trying to understand all the pains of the past .. It is really healthy to look at your life.. with a spiritual light ... having given it all to Jesus .. long ago .. the old wounds have been healed.. but always there seems to be new hurts, and disappointments from the current year .. It is my time.. to reflect.. and understand.. making sure all is forgiven.. Understanding.. why Jesus came in the first place.. Yes.. as a baby.. at first.. but he did grown to be a man.. who took all of my hurts and disappointments.. with him to the grave .. And rose with new life.. and promised that new life for me too .. And so .. eventually I put my past .. filled with hurt and regrets.. back neatly on the shelf with a pretty bow on it.. back on the shelf.. in my "Closet of Life" ... until the next year .. And walk on healed .. to another year.. holding the key of victory ..

It is Jesus spreading His love over me.. Oh.. without Him how lost I would be...

The gift my Stacey gave me that year.. was an emerald cut past, present, and future.. ring.. We would face Tomorrow... together ...

Tomorrow

None of us are promised tomorrow

But we can face .. each day..

Without sorrow of situations

That may happen tomorrow ..

Life needs to be lived

And not kept in a box

Although some moments

We tend to relive

Are safely kept under lock

Sorrow comes to us all one day

But it comes to pass

And not to stay

All of my sorrows

Have made me stronger

for a better tomorrow

Love LisaMe!

Note to self: I am not sad .. these are just the refection of me ..
Thank you Tois Taylor .. for helping me to clean out my closet .. and arrange my life.. neatly on the shelf.. allowing myself .. time to deal with life issues .. and then put them back neatly on the shelf .. But just like all closets.. they need to be cleaned out again .. and again .. Everything taken out .. rearranged and put back .. until the next year .. it needs to be cleaned again... so do not be afraid.. to tackle the problems of life.. take them one at a time.. using lots of prayer.. as you allow the Holy Spirit to help you to make your changes ..
For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:10 (NIV)


Wednesday, December 17, 2008
The healing of me .. Part 2 .. December 21st

Some of this was written.. as a tribute on Liza's birthday this past year.. I sent out an email card to all of my family and friends .. just wanting them to remember.. my daughter .. Reflections of the past.. may be painful.. but we learn from our past.. and we move on.. we are not meant to live in our past or in there mistakes our hurts .. Liza was a "Joy" in my life... with lots of happy memories.. and yes.. sad ones too.. Heart breaking ones.. My heart did not break.. but was torn.. but God mended me.. repairing my heart.. so that I could live to give... to any and all who would be willing to hear..

So .. If you read this Please do not be sad .. Jesus died too .. and He left us with a promise of eternal life. That hope is here for all of us. Reach out to those around you and show them Love today. Life can be very lonely at times for lots of people. You can make a difference in some one's life. God loves you .. His greatest commandment is to love one another.

I re-visited here today.. Remembering 27 years ago.. it all started on Dec 17.. 1981 .. a day much like today.. cold and foggy .. that night we ended up in the emergency room.. by ambulance .. this was before 911 .. How far things have come .. then transported to Ochsner.. I was too young (I was 21) to understand all that was happening.. your life in the hand of man.. But in the next 5 days.. I would come to understand.. that your life.. Was in the hands of God..

Reflections of life some good , some bad, some happy, some sad..

And so I lean not on my own understand but in All my ways acknowledge Him ..
Because of Him my life is/was forever changed

March 4, 1980 .. Returned to heaven .. December 21, 1981

In loving Memory of my ..
Little Liza

You are a "beautiful" memory in my "Garden of Life".

 I released you to God but you will always live in my heart. It is because you lived and died that I have so much love for God in my life. So I remember you with gladness in my heart .. not sadness because I know that even though we have had to be apart .. you have lived within my heart. God has been with us both .. and one day we will meet again .. in Heaven .. Heavens little girl - until we meet again - you are loved and missed .. I will always remember the "Joy" you gave me .. I Love you .. Mom-Me ..


Note: Sunday December 21, 2008 ... I will be at my mother's house.. I believe God has more healing to take place.. in the life of me and my mother .. the distance and the space .. in our relationship .. started 27 years ago .. The hurt in our lives.. hurt those around us.. Love hurts.. there is no way around it .. you must go through it .. I did not even realize that I had these feelings .. but deep within .. it was hidden.. I can release it here ... in my writings.. I have not share this with my Mother .. no need to hurt her heart .. for things she.. too did not understand .... Just daily we must allow God to hold our hand ...

Mother..

I needed you to walk with me ..

I was in a place
Where not many understood..

I felt so all alone..

In my weakness I became strong..

Leaning on God..

But I still needed you ..

I felt like you abandoned me

I am here today
To set this feeling of abandonment
Free

Released to the Lord

For our healing

Your Child LisaMe!

Note to self: Today is 03-03-09 tomorrow is 03-04 .. Liza's Birthday

She would be 29 it is ok.. I am not sad .. I just look to God each day Praising Him.. because He has made a way.. for me to always trust in Him.. Because of her.. my relationship with Him.. became solid .. What will it take.. for you to learn to totally Trust in Him.. If you need my help.. just ask, Love your sister friend LisaMe!

So as I take one day at a time..

Trusting in the Lord
To show me the Way..

I have peace for this day..

Knowing my blessings
Are on the way..

The trials for the day .. have come to pass not to stay..

I am growing from the knowing .. that comes .. with each one..

Because I know it is no secret from the Father or Son ...

I pray that you will learn your lessons too...
Because God has something Special for you!

I write in love.. and in release..
It is what brings my heart to peace.. LisaMe!

Up-Dated Note: 8/22/2010 Shared my blog ..on facebook .. while re-reading and writing about the healing of me.. my healing continues.... We never forget.. but we do not have to live in hurt and torment everyday to remember .. moments of sadness come.. but remember they are here to pass .... not to stay .. letting go of the hurt.. does not mean you are letting go of the one you love ...  that has passed on .. it is just leaving them in the hands of God ..

Remembering my Liza

one more time

one more year..

one more moment

with one more tear

Life is hard but we must keep on moving forward ..

when we stop..

we die

we can cry all we want

but we can not choose

things that happen in our lives

But what we can choose

is to allow God to turn things around

for something good to happen from a tragedy

Jesus Death brought about eternal life for us

We must morn and continue to move on

To a place of healing

Because someone is waiting for you

Just on the other side of your hurt

For you to help them overcome

So today what will you decide

Healing..
or
Allowing the devil to keep
Stealing your life..

with Love .. LisaMe!

Note: Continuing to try put things in order.. this is years of writing ... years of healing ..  today is 11/8/2010

Note: 11/20/2010 Today is day 10~ Healed Heart ..on my journey in my 40 day God's Heart Your Destiny devotion .. Today's Healed Heart begun many years ago .. this is just one more stop along the way .. And something Awesome did happen today .. this morning early my daughter Jamie called to invite me and my husband to come to Thanksgiving .. this is the first time we will be together as a family in over 7 yrs .. since we all married ..

My heart if flooded with emotions .. during this holiday time.. because many miss what real "Love" is ..  Love has a deeper meaning for me (I guess that could be in my on little mind) because I have lost love .. Love is precious to me .. and I love to share it .. deep from within .. from the Spirit of God that lives within ... I know I am not the only person in the world who has lost love .. but for me it gave me a deeper meaning of what Love is .. and wanting to share it with others.. which is not always received ..  Love is free ... it is a Free Gift.. to give and share .. with whom we will .. some will receive it and some will not.. which is their choice .. God is the gift of Love.. True Love.. and It is His Gift that I want to share with others .. Especially those who have no love .. There are many people who live a life feeling that no one loves them .. This is so sad .. Especially when it is so easy to give love to someone .. This year God is birthing something new in my heart .. He is bringing the Ministry forth ... from my heart .. to find a way to bridge that gap in the world .. To share His Love with others.. with children .. who may be living hardships (tootsie pops) and adults who may have become hard hearted with life (heart of stone) ...and whether related  or not ..adults and children need healing .. the bridge will help to heal families.. with broken hearts ... and help them to understand the Love of God .. and the Gift of His son Jesus ... and help them learn how to communicate as a family .. with and through that Love .. And for those with no family.. we can help them to receive the Love of an eternal family .. so that they will never feel lonely .. and alone again.  I believe that is what Love is.. to reach past our own hurts .. to help heal the hearts of others.. I believe that is what Jesus came to the earth for .. to bring us the Ultimate healing with His Love .. He was the bridge.. and still is the bridge... And I am here to continue to walk step by step.. through my faith.. to bring the "Bridge Mix" It is not with mixed feelings.. but a True Mix of teachings, and helps to be sure we reach all who need healing.. All who need love .. We will bring it forth.. from the Word of God .. Scriptures to heal the heart .. to reach into every situation and need .. Knowing God does not want anyone left behind .. because they are lost and can't find their way .. We are to build this bridge from the bottom up .. leading the way .. with Love .. so they can climb .. Using God's love to lead the way .. We are an end time Ministry .. The Lord says the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few... Will you come and join my crew.. will you come with your broken, wounded or healed hearts .. and take a part in helping to bring love to others.. with a candy or two .. Sharing what God's love can do .. I am a little scared as I lead the way .. But I know in my heart .. I must Trust and Obey .. Because it is Christ who is leading my way ...My heart.. becoming more and more healed everyday .. Because it doesn't always happen over night.. but a process of giving and living... through out the course of our lives ...That we experience True Love .. and can find and experience .. happiness in our lives ..

3-4-2011 .. Happy Birthday Liza.. you would have been 31 it is so hard to believe you have been gone so long .. I have peace in my heart .. and so much love.. because of you ..

Me and Liza
At the New Orleans Zoo
One of Life's Precious Moments

Note: 8-6-2012 This morning I woke up dreaming about God's plan for my life .. A healing Ministry too big for me to hold .. I do not feel worthy .. or able to do .. all God has shown me.. it feels too big for Lisa .. but I know it is not too big for LisaMe .. the Me being the Christ in me .. Thank you Lord.. I can not do it without you .. You give me hope, You give me Joy .. it is you who I run to ..

I found my self praying to God .. releasing again... hurts and disappointments .. A phone call with my Mother last night had left me hurt, with feelings of rejections .. I realize it is because of her own insecurities  .. it really has nothing to do me me ..

I woke up early with this note in my facebook .. and felt it so personal .. I felt God was speaking to me .. Helping me to let go of that disappointment, rejection and hurt from that phone call and so...

(I wrote)
You may not always say it out loud ...
Or
Be proud of what it is ....
But
Release it
So it does not
Hold you
Freedom is to
Not
 Let it hold
Your heart
~Goodbye~
 Foolish hurt
That says
I am unloved
~ You are a lie ~
 Jesus loves me
So much

Jesus Loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so ...
Throughout my adult life
I have not only read the bible
But made it a Practice
To study it ..
Learning of it Truths
And
All of the promises in there for Me
Do Not waste another Day
Pick it up

And
Read it Today!
Love, LisaMe!

My Pie Has passed away

Phyllis "Pie" Longwell
11-12-2008

Today "Pie" has passed away..
It makes me sad to think of yesterday ..
When she sat on the floor with my children to play

She watched our children when we had somewhere to go
We never had to worry.. about them while they were there

She had so much love .. with them to share ..
As she sat in her rocking chair

There was always housework work to be done
But when she had the children she always made it fun
Reading a book Not just one or two
But the whole stack that's when she was through...
She read lots of stories to them

Eventually they would fall asleep
These are beautiful memories I want to keep

Pie was sweet and she was kind
Never a wrong thought came from her mind
She was truly a Grandmother Pie

Filled with the Love
Of those she
has left behind...

Pie was my mother in law .. for 13 yrs.. before that she was my sister's mother in law .. and our neighbor.. I grew up.. with her.. motherly love.. We lived with them.. when we had a threat of miscarriage with my son.. she never required anything of me.. but offered love in her home.. I learned how to cook and how to clean .. without being fussy or mean.. she did everything in kindness.. slow moving but things always seem to get done.. tomorrow would always be there.. she was never in a rush to get anywhere .. I may not have always agreed with everything she said or did.. but she never criticized the things that I did.. I have missed her throughout the years.. After my divorce.. It was better for me to slip away.. and give space.. for the family to heal.. one more thing I had to let go of.... And so today I offer these words .. to myself.. to heal.. for the loss that I feel... Pie .. I love you .

I sat and cried over the loss.. of my former mother in law and grandmother to my children .. I am not able to be with them at the funeral.. to grieve with them over the loss of their Pie.. I missed not being able to be there when Poppie died and their Uncle Charlie .. I was a part of this family ...and so I cry too ..

To My Jeremy and Jamie .. just doing what is right for you.. Leaving room for you and your dad ..

I know he too is sad ..it is not about me.. but about them..

Note to Myself: I wrote this after
Emotions are raw
it is just to new
to share these thoughts
and feelings with you

And So I come
this is what I do
I write them down
right here for you
I just wanted you to know I knew
just how important she was to you ..

This was my wall of ribbons and lace .. you can not see it very well.. but the plates are very pretty with tiny pink flowers .. A lace ribbon starts at the top and runs to the bottom .. It is a place where teddy bears.. never grow old.. they are sitting on a trunk with treasures.. of life untold. The pictures on the wall are perfect mothers all dressed in white.. holding perfect children.. That is not really life.. Underneath is the angel on the wall.. that gives us grace when we fall... All white and pink and full of lace.. is how I love to have myspace.. but I do not live here all alone so we have greens and browns added to our home... (This was our apartment in Jacksonville .. yes I have still not unpacked here in Patterson.. hoping to have a more permanent home)

2012 ..Living in Morgan City .. in a nice new place .. but felt I could not have my own space

First Stacey, elderly mother lived with us .. and before she left .. our little grands came to live with us .. So .. I still do not have my space .. my office is overwhelmed with paperwork .. I am working on cleaning it out .. I want to get back to my writing projects .. I used to print as I wrote.. keeping things.. in books.. now I keep them in blogs .. lol .. at least when I update .. I do not have to add a page ..LOL ..   Most of my pretties.. are still in a box.. my Teddy Bears.. still have not been set out ..I want them back where they belong .. I always had such a friendly home ....Working on all of this .. Praying for a bigger house .. the g-children each need their own rooms .. Maybe Gram-Me will get a room too ..

2018 .. I got a car .. to take me both near and far ..

My Children are at the core of my heart

My things have been moved and packed so many times .. they have even been in storage for years at a time .. And now.. are still in boxes .. I have not unpacked most of it since being back here in Louisiana .. I just want .. to unpack it in my forever home .. It is amazing how many times my life has changed and all of my things continue to be rearranged .. but the one thing that always runs true.. is my heart for the Lord and my love for you ...

Little Treasures of my Heart

Here are some 

of 

Some of the Treasures 

Deep within
The
Memories

of 
My heart 

If you look closely

You will see
Lots
of
Secret Parts of LisaMe!
 In this picture

Through
The
Reflection
The Mirror

A baby doll
Laying on the bed 

Which is a reminder
of
The baby girl
That once laid there

The little girl photo's are me
As a little girl of 3 yrs old  

So much of my life yet to unfold
Treasures
of
Life
Yet to be told

This is the  one in the top corner 

of 

My sisters and me 

I am the youngest sister of three  

This picture hung on the walls 

of 

Our grandparents homes 

I was able to see it
All 

of 

My life

Until
They passed away

Then 

They were put in a box 

A locked away treasure  

I did not see again 

Until 

I was 40 yrs old
The Year
2000

Found 

In a box 

In my mothers closet

Stored away
For a rainy day memory
 and 

Then not only was it us three 

But 

One
Alone
Picture of just
LisaMe

Important
Only
To
Me

I had never
Remembered

Seeing
 That picture
Before

Wow 

Look closely it is me 

..Holding a candy basket.. 

Again Wow
Because
I had been writing
Published
Under
My

New name 

LisaMe!

That was the beginning of my Ministry 

.. A Candy Ministry .. 

Who could have ever guessed 

All I can say

Is

Father knows best 

God knew me
.. When I was in my mothers womb ..

He knew how
He created me
He Knows me Now

and 

What
He created me to be

 It is me .. LisaMe! 

Who still has 

So 

Much to discover 

Much of Life
To
Restore
And
Recover

And
Then He brought Mr. Man
To
Me

The baby boy
In
The picture is my Stacey

.. Not quite 3 .. 

God knew
He would have
Him in my life
 

We would both
Be
Restored

 .. Even when we were children ..
Living
Miles apart
God
Knew
The Future
of
Our Hearts

I believe
Our futures are in God's hands

.. If you look closely in the picture you will even see us kiss.. 

Among-st
All those things are all of my pink and white things
Childhood things I was never able to have

.. Kittens, Bears  and Bunnies .. 

To remind me
To love
 and
To laugh

... All of my fluffy and soft things ..

 And
Those delicate 

Things 

Made of glass

God showing me
How
Precious
I
Am
To
Him

... Treasures in my heart .. 

But 

None 

of 

Those can compare

 To 

The love of my Lord 

Who lives with me
In every thought

 .. Every memory .. 

of
Every second 

of 

Every day 

... It is Him.. 

Who gives me life to share

.. With words of encouragement..
Inspiration

And 

Lots of prayers
A Prophet
An Armor Bearer 

.. For those I love..

He sends me the Very Best
I feel so Blessed

It tickles my spirit

He uses strangers to touch my heart

And 

To Bring about such awesome thoughts

... He says His harvest is plentiful .. 

But 

The workers are few 

If you only knew

.. That ..
If
He made a way 

Today

 .. I would be with you ... 

Sharing
His Love

.. It is who I am
.. What I do ..

 It
 Is
The
Treasures 

of 

My heart 

My children
My Babies
Who
Grew up
But
Will
Always
And
Forever
Be
In
My 

Heart

My little Liza lives in Heaven .. her memories are in my heart
My Jeremy and Me Jamie
And
Their Children
Henry, Hannah and Amelia
Live Daily
In
My
Thoughts
And
Prayers

Being a Gram-Me
Has
Been
A
Blessing

Together we have
Many Grand Children
Each
One
Special
In
Our Hearts

Jensen, Keegan, Raylee
Zane, Trey
Breanna, Javen, Bella
Henry, Hannah
Amelia

But
Oh
There
Are
Just to many Miles
In-between
The
Hugs and Smiles 

Note: This picture was taking during a happy time .. back in 2008
Just before we moved back to Louisiana.. from Florida .. I Loved our apartment ..
Many of those little things are still packed away in a box.
"Bears in Boxes" have been released .. More and more peace .. as I write and release

Note for Today:
1/13/2019 another year .. has passed .. More Memories .. More prayers .. More calls from the Lord ..
I will be faithful .. to where He wants to send me .. I will be faithful to pray for All He assigns unto me ...Yes .. Mr Man  is human and has .. issues.. But he is Mighty in the Lord .. When I prayed for a Husband.. I prayed... "specific" for a "Spiritually Tall Man" if we have one that has never been in the battle .. how will he know how to fight .. and how to pray .. had he never .. been on his knees ... praying out to the Lord .. what good would he be to me.. in the deepest battles ... God is so good .. When we seek for His will .. He knows what we need .. Stacey is only a man .. but He is my Mr. Man .. one God himself provided for me.. He is my Gift .. Amen .. And I was his gift on His .. 43rd Birthday .. One he will ever forget .. I am the love .. compassion and kindness.. he never had .. the beautiful soul he prayed and asked God for .. We see and Know the answered prayers .. that not all see.. when they look upon our flesh ..Sometimes they just see a mess.. But we know what the Father has done .. deep within us .. And He is not finished just yet .. We still have restoring and exploring yet to do .. So if you are reading this.. Because how you judge my flesh .. it will come back to you .. His word speaks to us all different .. But know .. It is Alive and Active .. it cuts through the bone.. joint and marrow .. God knows.. what He has to do .. in and through each soul .. to get us to totally surrender each part of our flesh to Him ... He is a jealous God .. It is my deepest desire to serve Him and to do His will .. I do not always have to understand it .. But I do have to be obedient unto it ... Allowing space.. for His will .. We prophecy in part .. and know only in part .. God the Father is the Only one who Knows all .. We stand.. Where He leads us ... I will defend and Stand my ground and allow .. others to defend and Stand their ground .. We are all called to different battles .. And some.. may not be called to the battle at all .. God calls and uses whom He wills ... And so I release and Bless .. Praying for those .. God calls me to .. I do not have to hold .. all .. Just the ones .. God has called me to .. So if I have no word for you .. I will not pretend and or make one up .. Perhaps .. He has.. called another to pray for you ...and to speak a word to you .. I just know I will be faithful .. As unto Him .. the Living Lord .. the King of Kings.. My Ever Lasting Father  Amen

Today is 12/18/2010 ~ Day 39~ Courageous heart ... I will allow each day to have enough courage for itself .. to keep walking where God wants me to .. knowing it is in my weakness.. that I am strong ..Sometimes I feel like David facing the giant .. But today I feel like Joshua.. standing on holy ground ..
6/18/2018 Day 15 in my 21 Day Challenge .. I am Enough .. I am learning  more and more about myself .. I am healing .. inside and out .. healing in my emotions more and more .. We are in the process of rearranging our home .. One more time .. but this time is different it is just for us .. Me and Stacey .. we will grow together .. We are going through a process ..

I Love you... LisaMe!

I love to write .. messages from the heart ..

God gives me something to say

It is not me it just works that way

I sit with my thoughts and start to write

I enter into a spiritual sight

It is something that comes deep from within

When I sit down with paper and pen

I do not always know why

Or always know when

The thoughts will come or when they will end

I Just Praise God ..They will come again!

All I know is I am in Love with God

It is so hard to pull away ..
I feel driven .. to say the words that are trapped within ..

until they come out .. with my hand and pen .. ha ha ..

that sounded good to me .. even though I do not use a pen ..
but a computer keyboard .. lol.. I amuse myself ..

with words.. can you tell ..
Blessings .. LisaMe!

Be released into all that God wants you to be

I posted this to a
special sister friend .. after she took the time
to listen to me .. when I needed to share ..
She is always there with a word and a prayer

These are things I always want to remember
The feeling of what it means to surrender

We come at times like a butterfly landing
On the nose of a friend ..
We just need to sit for a moment
And then ..

Just know as a friend that you can bring such a release and peace..
We know the answer before we come..
We just needed to speak the words out loud to someone...

Life moves so fast..

"Thank You"

For taking the time for my call

You are a precious

sister prayer partner, and friend

I feel at peace with my release ..

His spirit is the wind in my wings

Love LisaMe!

I praise God for my release
Which gives me such a peace
I feel it so deeply
So I give myself completely
Yet at times I need to disconnect
Which some people just do not get
I can not give all of me and not have it replaced
 
(God says give and it shall be given unto you)
Thursday, March 15, 2018 - Edited I Trust God to always fill that empty space
Have you ever sat empty with a smile on your face
The Love of God fills those lonely times
This is what happens to me with my words and my rhymes
God enters into those lonely rooms
His spirit sweeps out the blues 
And 
The dusts in those rooms
And 
Then Holy Spirits rains
Watering 
All the gloomy 
Thoughts, disappointments, tears and fears
In those lonely rooms
And 
Then such 
An Amazing thing 
Happens
The love of God 
Brings forth 
New Blossoms
Even more Beautiful
Than
The ones
You have seen before
We
Can Never Out Give God
His Love Endures 
Forever
In Love
LisaMe!



How does your Garden Grow? ..

I would love to hear... what you grow..

It is important to ask.. and important to know..

How does your Garden Grow

Wednesday October 27, 2010

Mine grows..

With words of encouragement

That the Lord.. fills in my heart

It bubbles up to my fingertips

And hits this keyboard ..

And sometimes comes out of my lips

To share with you ...

I love what my Garden Grew

Because I knew it would touch you!

Love LisaMe!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Heartfelt Seeds

Which direction

Will your influence flow ..

When God

Gives you seeds..

To sow

There are things

That are important to know....

Before you plant

And before you sow...

Especially if you want

Something good to grow

While you scatter your seed

You must know what it needs

To know..

How they will grow

Like how much sun ..

And how much water it needs

Today..

I planted some heart felt seeds

I pray it grows hearts...

...And not any weeds ...

Love LisaMe!

Note: 2/7/2019 written on Facebook .. timeline ..

 

Who is needing You to Pray for them .. 

Sit by the Garden .. and Pray my friend

The Harvest time .. Will come in

Let the Light of Jesus Shine on them ...

Love .. LisaMe! your sister friend

Hebrews
By Faith We Understand
11:1 Now faith is the [a]substance of things hoped for, the [b]evidence of things not seen.

What are you waiting to see .. What have you planted?
What have you prayed for .. The Harvest is Coming
John 14:6
6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.
New King James Version (NKJV)

Note...Wednesday October 27, 2010 8:am

 I Love my seeds .. it seems they keep growing and are planted all around me.. I am trying to put some of them together .. to see.. just "How does my Garden Grow"  it is coming together .. God has been doing a work in me for years .. some of my post are dated.. and some are not .. it is interesting to me .. just how much God speaks.. to us.. Are we really listening?  .. I am working more on that.. I listen well to God.. but do not always... listen to others... because of my own selfish need to share .. hummm.. that is a weed I need to pluck up.. so that it does not grow.. into a plant of selfishness.. God is the Gardner of my heart .. I surrender to Him daily and submit to Him.. so He can continue to show  .. LisaMe .. How does My Garden Grow..... I water .. I weed and I wait ...

The life of a little seed .. Just in a day .. Lord Have your own way
9:15am Already God is continuing to speak through a friend ..... I am Standing on that Word with you ... we need to keep .. encouraging ourselves.. our friends.. and those who will listen .. we are in end times.. and our end time harvest is near.. We need to protect our crops ... and continue to weed... our souls .. and fertilize with the Holy Spirit .. and water with the Word of Truth.. Amen!
1:30pmThank you sister friend .. as you saw.. from reading to the end.. it blessed and stretched me again .. I Love How God works.. taking a word.. and using it over and over again... to continue His blessing.... I am blessed by what He does.. with my fingertips .. and it Amazes me when it gets to my lips ... Sometimes I can not believe it is me speaking.. then I remember it is not.. it is His Holy Spirit speaking through me ..

also written in 2008 found on my wall in MySpace



We spend lots of time .. crawling on the ground like a caterpillar feeding on God's word .. not fully understanding all the things God wants from us. But the whole time God has a purpose and a plan for our lives. Then one day.. it happens.. We turn into that Beautiful Butterfly.. that Flies.. God has filled in each and every detail .. Be blessed my dear friends as we walk into God's Destiny this year ..2008 ..

Be Released!